*Pam Talks* and a day I want to just want to end....
Nov 17, 2018
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=476vVF_wvZM

this is my story and welcome to it okay
I am opening up a piece of Mel that I am
getting from Chris which is chef
wannabes life
she sent a little package to me and my
family so I'm having all you open it and
everybody's here Ezra come look at the
box see see what's all in there hold on
baby boy okay she put candies in there
oh those are for me to try they're the
flavored water things you want me to try
these ones
oh my gosh look at Chris oh this is
beautiful all the coloring boy and
that's the animal oh wait what is that
oh here's a book oh this is for Jeremiah
and where she said she put a book in
there for Jeremiah goes back to s right
keep your ears warm this is for you this
is for me and then there's O in there oh
there's my shoes yeah she got me my
shoes that I've been wanting and okay
the Pez is for Omar and the candy is for
daddy the imminence so everybody got a
little something from Chris and George
George's Chris's husband thank you so
much I can't believe I'm so happy to see
all this what do you all see thank God
they show crime
joke rod means thank you in Arabic thank
you Chris I really appreciate it
good afternoon good evening good morning
[Music]
goodbye good to everything cuz that's
what it is today you guys I did not vlog
at all today
look at this headpiece I put on I got it
from Dollar Tree a few weeks back but
it's gonna serve it's it's uh dues for
tonight because I don't feel like
looking for anything else I hope
everybody had a great Friday to be able
to go into a wonderful weekend
I did not vlog today because today has
just been a day if any of you guys are
on my facebook y'all probably already
know it has been an over whelming day to
day I've just my two little ones have I
think pushed every button to see what
they can do to make mommy want to
seriously run away I was back and forth
on the phone with my medical because
they're declining wanting to pay for
services that I had done for physical
therapy because they're saying I didn't
have prior approval which is so not true
because I even called the doctor's
office and they're like yeah we have it
right here that there was an approval
for you to go to your first initial
appointment so I had to call back and
forth back and forth
all over the place trying to get this
taken care of because I don't want an
outstanding bill you know I did make the
bed let's not mess it up please this is
like the fifth time I've cleaned my room
anyways um so I was on the phone doing
with that like half of the day because
you know calling medical places yeah
it's never an easy never an easy thing
then from there I see I'm trying to
figure out what else I had to do today
oh I'm getting the renewals and stuff
done for Jeremiah's passport because
it's also expiring so because it's not a
US citizen passport you have to go to
where obviously his passport is good
from and so Jeremiah Omar let's not play
at that place that's important paperwork
Thanks so you have to go to where his
passport is from and so I had to get
online get all that stuff copied off and
print it off so I can get that stuff
submitted on Monday it has just been a
busy busy day of just trying to catch up
on you know paperwork and office work it
just today has just been a day and on
top of that all I have just been really
like aggravated and I don't know why
like there's no essential reason why I
am like I there's I have no excuse why I
feel so agitated but I just do Omar can
you turn that off please
things like this that I'm doing what
today Omar Omar can you shut it off
please shut it off thank you but I'm
just very agitated it seems like
everything is getting under my skin and
I just you know it on top of it then
you've got my kids that have just tested
every button I think that they could
push with mom
ezra decided to get her leg stuck under
the couch today so I had to go take care
of that well once I got our leg unstuck
she decided to run smack in the corner
of my entry table with her head right
after that oh my god and then like ten
minutes later Omar decided to jump up on
the bed and smack his head against the
wall
no Omar no so now he has a huge knot on
the top I was just like you guys have
seriously have got to be like totally
chilling it so yeah that has been the
tolda demeanor of my day to day and I am
so ready to take a hot shower get my
kids ready for bed um so that's I think
what isn't planned for me today because
I just know I'm not not having today
really at all I really am NOT so anyways
um I wanted to thank everybody for all
your eyes outpouring comments about us
are being dirty all the time I
absolutely love it I just like whatever
I am NOT gonna chase my kid around with
a wipe yep it's right now oh no you need
to go put that away cuz that's for
mommy's dinner please go put the bell
pepper away I have no idea even I don't
even have an appetite to eat dinner
today I just I haven't even eaten I had
breakfast
nine-thirty and I haven't eaten anything
since nothing oh excuse me I had all he
did bring me a coffee and he brought me
a sandwich from this place but I think I
took three bites of it and Esther took
it over so but I'm not even hungry I
really not I could so not even eat dirt
tonight I probably won't because I'm
just not in the mood to eat really quick
um so I have a subby
that's on here her name is Pam talks she
has her own YouTube channel absolutely
amazing absolutely love her love her to
death she has some amazing things that
she talks about on her channel that is
just like so inspiring mmm she used to
do reviews um I haven't seen her do
reviews for a long time for her own
personal reasons and I support her 100%
either way she chooses to go with her
channel just like anybody it's their
channel they could do what they want on
their channel and I do not hold anybody
you know it's everybody's own decision
what they want to do with their channel
but you know she I just I love her
channel I have been a follower of her
channel since before she got a lot of
followers I've been a follower of hers
and I just love watching her channel
anyways so she had responded to my
comment about telemarketers and I found
it really intriguing because actually I
guess she was a telemarketer at one time
if I'm understanding this right Pam if
I'm totally off correct me but I think
that's what I was understanding that you
were a telemarketer at one time so she
gave some really good advice and you
know I guess on one spectrum you have to
think that this is people's job this is
how they make their money to support
their families it might be one of the
most annoying jobs that somebody can
experience with like as in
you know we as the the people that get
the calls
we're annoyed by their job of course you
know because we don't want to deal with
it but on another spectrum that's how
they pay their bills that's how they put
food on the table for their family and
you have to do what you have to do for a
living and that is so true and she gave
something so instead of like screaming
in people's ear like a banjee or blowing
whistles or whatever or cussing people
out which I don't cuss people out I just
that part I just you know that's I don't
know anyways but she had some good tips
you know that you can do which is one
asset we only do not call list um and
she says it takes I think she said 21 or
24 days I could be off on one of those
days but um for it to go into effect now
doesn't mean that they're not gonna not
call you back but at least you're asking
and it could take up to 21 days or so
for them to have that going to effect
another thing that you can tell them is
I'm sorry but this person is deceased no
longer living and hang up then they will
put it that the person's deceased and
they won't continue to call because
they're obviously asking for a certain
person now again that wouldn't go if it
was for a broad circumstance which would
be like a trip or something like that
cuz they don't specifically ask for a
one person that's just like a automated
thing and so she's like she said most of
them are hoping you will hang up because
majority of them cannot hang up on you
see you have to hang up on them so
they're hoping that you're gonna hang up
and they won't call you back doesn't
mean you're not gonna get a call back
from somebody else but that they're that
your number generates in a system so
it's not like they deliberately say oh I
want to call this number today and I
want to really give them a hard time
so as she was speaking it really made
sense to mean it really I really kind of
had a change of insight and I love love
love and that's the thing I love about
YouTube is that you can go
people's channels and learn so much
stuff from people that you wouldn't even
think about like I would never have even
really thought about well this is how
the person's paying their bills this is
how they're putting bread on the table
for their family I mean you know I would
never have thought about that but yet
Pam you know kind of brought those
things up like she didn't deliberately
say that but it kind of brought me to
thinking of that you know like well this
is somebody's job you know and it is an
annoying job for me to have to deal with
but why am I going to scream in
somebody's ear when they're just doing
their job I would never want somebody to
send me nasty messages because I'm a
youtuber does that make sense
so it kind of can go hand in hand in a
lot of ways because maybe my channel is
annoying to people maybe what I talk
about is irrelevant to people so they
might turn on and send me the most nasty
as much as messages to make me feel bad
when this is my passion this is what I
like to do this is my job well not my
job because I don't consider you to but
job I mean hold on I'm gonna rephrase
that it's not that I don't consider
YouTube to be a job it is a job it's a
full-time job but me personally this is
my passion so I would never look at this
because I think of a job as something
you have to do you don't have really a
choice because it's a job this is my
passion and I choose to do this because
this is something I absolutely love to
do I wake up in the morning excited to
start my day with you guys today excuse
it but today I'm a liar but I mean for
almost every day though I wake up and I
look forward to my day with you guys and
sharing my my life and sharing my
experiences and my journey and my ends
in my outs my ups and my downs and
everything in between this is my
so I don't look at this as a job because
they don't feel like I have to do this
but I'm so absolutely love doing it and
that makes the difference but it still
doesn't take away from the fact that I
would hate to have dirty messages coming
to me putting me down or call me names
like I had an interest in oh my god an
interesting message the other day this
guy don't know where he came from don't
know if he was just from Facebook or if
he was from well he had to have been
from YouTube at some given time because
he had multiple youtubers that I am
acquaintances of that they got my
information I think from their Facebook
slash YouTube channels I think anyways
this guy sent the most interesting call
message asked me to show my roles and
play with my breasts and eat food in
front of a screen for him and I'm like
yeah I think you got this all wrong but
he like this is changing
I'm not Emperor like I'm embracing it
yes but I am changing these things I
would never eat food for somebody to get
excited from not my cup of tea and I
would never sit and shake my rolls for
somebody to get off on like nope sorry
next so of course I didn't even respond
I just read it and I deleted it like
blocked it so they this person couldn't
write me back i'm rony remember the name
and anyways but I mean I've had a few
interesting comments like that like
messages but I mean just because I am a
larger youtuber doesn't mean that I want
nasty messages sent to me and that would
be the same as taking it from you know
from their aspects they are a
telemarketer but this is their job and
they you know I don't need to disrespect
them or hurt their hearing I mean how
fair is that so I did have a really
different change of heart today
listening to Pam's message and if you're
not already a subscriber of her channel
you guys should jump over and check her
out her name is Pam talks and she is
absolutely amazing like I said I find
what she talks about so inspiring and
she talks about a broad of things like
there's not one given thing that she
talks about it's a whole bunch of little
interesting things and she hasn't like
part of her channel is a diary so I just
think it's really cool I really love
just listening to her messages
so anyways I'd give her a check out and
just check her out I think she's really
cool so thank you Pam I really
appreciate you sending that message and
you know in the way that you did it was
so nice you know you didn't like direct
it to one person you know because in
honesty I think that I'm probably not
the only one that has issues with
telemarketers you know I think that's
just a a general thing that everybody
deals with but having you be a personal
person that has been in that industry
understands what you guys have gone
through and what we've gone through so
you see it from both sides and it's so
nice to hear the opposite side it just
makes it really nice I love being able
to hear that
so anyways other than that you guys I
had a lazy day like I really rested my
leg a lot today I didn't do a whole
whole lot on it I just kept it up I did
a lot of reading on what this could be
because you know I'm making notes for
when I go to my doctor's appointment
because I need to point these things out
to my doctor and be like okay I need
like these steps taken I read a little
bit on lymphedema and lymphedema can be
caused from cellulitis which I've had
cellulitis obviously and I've had it
into my right Lake where I have the
large growth whatever it is but okay
take my pillow I'm using those my arms
thing um but also a baker cyst also
looks a lot like what I have so I'm
thinking that's between the two but I'm
not a dye I'm not a doctor
um I'm not a doctor and I cannot
diagnose myself so and I age do not ever
diagnose myself of anything I always
wait for my doctor to do so but I like
to sometimes if I think that maybe
something's being overseen that maybe
he's not getting I like to look things
up and make notes and then take them and
we can go over them and he could be like
absolutely that just doesn't sound like
anything which has happened and then
other times he's like hey good good
point out there let's check this out and
sometimes it is like my thyroid I am the
one that kept initially saying something
is wrong with my thyroid because of all
my symptoms and so once he really got
looking at it and doing extra testing
and deeper testing that's when he found
out that yes my thyroid was off so
sometimes it's good to be your own
advocate to your doctor not saying that
you are self diagnosing yourself but
it's still good to bring things up that
are of concern so that you can be there
and tell your doctor hey you know
obviously I don't feel like these things
are being met my needs are not being met
I feel like there's something wrong
I mean clearly there's something in my
leg whether it's pocket of fluid or a
cyst or a tumor or I mean it could be a
little of anything and everything um so
it's it's good to have the testing to
know what it is and I think if I have a
name to what it is it would help me but
right now when I sit here and I feel it
hurting my knee and it obviously causes
me pain when I move around and I don't
have a reason for it
or a name to say it is it just puts it
out there like on a open burner and
doesn't let me really know or think what
it is so that's what I did a little bit
of today too was just searching that
type of stuff and just trying to figure
out
what it is because I just I'm so you
know with Baker assistant says that it
can make your your need not be able to
expand all the way without it feeling
like you're stretching out like me and
that's exactly how it feels like I it's
weird because I had told ollie this last
night I said I almost can't even open up
my whole leg because I feel like when I
do that there's so much pressure inside
that it feels like it's bulging out my
kneecap it is the weirdest thing I
driving me nuts
but hopefully we'll get to the bottom of
it and get to the bottom of it soon
because I'm just sick and tired of
hurting and not being able to do the
things that I need to do and want to do
because something's always got to be
stopping me but I'm gonna still push
through it I don't care just like today
I got up and cleaned my whole room again
five times over because my kids wouldn't
stop with the mess but anyways so I hope
you guys enjoyed tonight I'm sorry like
I said is a cheesy vlog today and I
apologize I hope tomorrow will be much
better I don't know exactly what all I
have in store but I'm sure I'm gonna get
out and do something tomorrow because I
am going literally stir crazy in this
house with my kids and I have got to
somehow get a break
so anyway oh yeah anyways so I hope you
guys take care I will check in with you
guys tomorrow bright and shiny in the
morning until then you guys sweet dreams
bye bye
